Insert swear words here.........

Was men just a cruel joke god played on women or was he just having a bad day when he invented them..
I know strange sentence to start with but i'll explain why..
Last night I worked as always and I finished at 1am checked my phone as I left to see if I had a msg to bring home milk or anything.. no msgs
So I drive home (takes about 35 mins) and as I get in the door I get abused.
''Where the hell have you been and why didn't you answer your phone, Brielle has been awake since 11:45." "Um at work" I say
"you said you finished at 12".
then off to bed he goes in the shits.
So to cut a long story short I swore at him them got my jamies and went to settle Brielle.Didn't see Steve again in the long hours she was awake till 4 something..
But he was nice enough to kiss me goodbye in the morning and say sorry. I didn't open my eyes because I don't want to go to jail for manslaughter.
He called me about 9 all happy well that was the end of me I screamed and cryed like an idiot but I feel much better now.

On another note my new job is DIFFERENT to say the least. Lets just say the patrons are mostly weirdos and (um searching for word) people with drug and alchol problems. But the staff are nice and I have fun at work.

Sob sob Miss brielle wouldn't have a sleep today she screamed for an hour so I'm not getting a nap today before work sob sob

Two jobs

Yes at the moment I'm working 2 jobs but that's only because I have a new job and I'm just finishing up my roster at the old one. I really don't know if getting a new job is a great Idea but I just couldn't handle the crap at my old work any longer I can't believe a bunch of 40 and 50 year old can act so childish not just towards me but i was so sick of hearing crap about everyone else. So left I hope this new job is better although I am a little scared because the T.A.B at the new job is a super T.A.B so there are some serious betters who expect you to get a bet on for them in 2 seconds and I'm not used to putting bets on manually.I stuffed on up yesterday but luckily the horse didn't win so i didn't get abused.
On another note I am feeling fantastic lately I really didn't know how bad I felt. I was having panic attack and I just always felt like something was wrong or I was late for something or sometimes I just didn't know. I was always feeling like my life was racing and I had no control. So in the end with the crap at work and feeling like absolute crap i want to the Dr and I have been told I have anxiety and was prescribed anti depressants. When I got home and read the pamphlet he gave me on depression and anxiety I couldn't believe how many of the symptoms I had or have had. The tablets made me feel like crap ( a hangover) for a few weeks but now I feel great.I feel so much calmer with the kids too so I am so happy.The Dr told me I should go and see a shrink but i think I will hold that off for a few years I don't want to turn into a blivering mess.
My kids are great I cant believe I have 3 great kids i am so lucky ( yes they still do naughty things ) But compared to some of the kids I see on the street or at school they are fan bloody tastic. Brielle now usually only wakes up once a night so I am so happy she can say the other kids name and I think that is so cute although i feel sorry for her when she stands at the window calling aya (isaiah) and he is at school. Aylahs teacher told me she is in the highest reading level in her class and she behaves herself all the time on the other hand Isaiah has been a little naughty talking in class all the time at but i think he just takes after his mum in that way shhh don't tell him. wow this is long are you happy now Kym lol...
take care all

LIAR LIAR PANTS ON FIRE

Yup that's me.. Called in work and said Brielle was sick on Saturday night..uuummm aaaaahhhh.. I don't think my ass moved from the couch all night even got KFC for the kiddies..lol

Miss B had a fall today and put her teeth through her tongue. I have never seen so much blood poor bubby.

Can anyone tell me that girls stop talking so much when they get older coz my god Aylah never takes a breath.

Isaiah is not a bot and not a teenager and that is HARD to live with ATM..

I shouldn't B#$*H they are great kids.

Pulled all the grass out of the backyard today ready for the turf next weekend cross fingers.

Work all day tomorrow (SIGH) that means up early with the kids to take Brielle to the mil; Aylah to before school care,Isaiah is too cool for before care he wants to ride lets hope it's not raining or he will be going....

friday night chats....

My sanity in this world....the greatest bunch of women to have a laugh with although some have gotten BORING now 80 % of them are pregnant lol..it is a little freaky chatting to a bunch of women who you have never met.. But I dont think I would be sane without babycentre and MSN..

yay day off..

I don't know what worse going to work or staying home. At least I get paid if I go to work.

first blog eva....

O.k my first BLOG eva...ooohhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhh

First of all I guess if your reading this you can blame Julie ( yes you Julie ) for the dribble you are going to read..



I'm tired as hell .. was called into work last night because a few people had called in sick to do a sift that finishes at 2 am. Usually when I know I'm going to work late I have a lie down with Brielle in the afternoon but the silly woman called me when she was due to wake up so no sleep for me. Work was dull and the night dragged on but finally 2am came and I was heading home ( in the freezing cold mind you). I hate driving home that late as we live in the sticks and the roads are deserted at that time of night and dark and I feel the need to look out for roos all the way home.. Made it home withouit seeing a roo and climbed in to bed (aka couch ) yes yes I know silly me still sleeping on the couch outside brielles room. But it is a real comfy couch. IT IS!.



Just closed my eyes and friken hell Brielle decides to wake up.I take her in a bottle and she is sitting up having a good chat to me. grrrrrr lie her down and leave the room .Praying to god she would go back to sleep .. But god must have been asleep becuse she cried and cried and cried for nearly 2 hrs.I did go in a few times but she wouldn't settle.. so now it's 4 am .. And I'm adding up how much sleep i will get ( don't ask) . So then I crack it and go and ask Steve if he can try . YES HE HAS SLEPT THROUGH IT ALL AGAIN!. he goes in decides her nappy need changing pulls her out of bed and sets the sids alarm off. The alarm just keeps going and going and going the whole time he is changing her nappy. Then he puts her in bed and she goes to sleep.. WTF is with that.

Well Miss B is due for a sleep so I shall lie down with her because I'm working till 2am again tonight.



Oh I might just stay on here and see if I can do any fancy things .lol.