Two jobs

Yes at the moment I'm working 2 jobs but that's only because I have a new job and I'm just finishing up my roster at the old one. I really don't know if getting a new job is a great Idea but I just couldn't handle the crap at my old work any longer I can't believe a bunch of 40 and 50 year old can act so childish not just towards me but i was so sick of hearing crap about everyone else. So left I hope this new job is better although I am a little scared because the T.A.B at the new job is a super T.A.B so there are some serious betters who expect you to get a bet on for them in 2 seconds and I'm not used to putting bets on manually.I stuffed on up yesterday but luckily the horse didn't win so i didn't get abused.
On another note I am feeling fantastic lately I really didn't know how bad I felt. I was having panic attack and I just always felt like something was wrong or I was late for something or sometimes I just didn't know. I was always feeling like my life was racing and I had no control. So in the end with the crap at work and feeling like absolute crap i want to the Dr and I have been told I have anxiety and was prescribed anti depressants. When I got home and read the pamphlet he gave me on depression and anxiety I couldn't believe how many of the symptoms I had or have had. The tablets made me feel like crap ( a hangover) for a few weeks but now I feel great.I feel so much calmer with the kids too so I am so happy.The Dr told me I should go and see a shrink but i think I will hold that off for a few years I don't want to turn into a blivering mess.
My kids are great I cant believe I have 3 great kids i am so lucky ( yes they still do naughty things ) But compared to some of the kids I see on the street or at school they are fan bloody tastic. Brielle now usually only wakes up once a night so I am so happy she can say the other kids name and I think that is so cute although i feel sorry for her when she stands at the window calling aya (isaiah) and he is at school. Aylahs teacher told me she is in the highest reading level in her class and she behaves herself all the time on the other hand Isaiah has been a little naughty talking in class all the time at but i think he just takes after his mum in that way shhh don't tell him. wow this is long are you happy now Kym lol...
take care all